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  “Not yet!” he snapped at her as her body tightened in response to the new edge they’d put on their lovemaking. He could feel her hovering on the edge of orgasm and knew his control was what she needed to sink into the pleasure of being who she was. Commanding her to wait gave her the freedom to explore sensations, stretch her sensual limits. It released her from responsibility on so many levels and let her simply be his.

  With his fingers buried deep in her ass, he looked up from her crotch at the lush shudder of her large breasts. Pulling the fingers out slowly, he watched breasts jiggle with her gasping whimper. Pink nipples were distended in pouty excitement as her chest was forced up and out by the position of her arms. He pushed back into her ass and her bent legs tensed. She was stretched and spread in a position that showed off her body in stunning detail. She’d never been more beautiful, more wanton, more druggingly sexy.

  “That’s it, baby. Feel how good it is.” His fingers began to move firmly in and out of her and he wondered if she was to the place where she could come with just that stimulation yet. He’d been very careful introducing her to the pleasure of her ass being invaded. The completeness of submitting to his control in this way was a classic mix of embarrassment and gratification. He wanted her to have both those pleasures, but he also wanted to be very sure he never damaged her physically. This entrance to her body could be trained to take a cock, stretched to ensure her pleasure the first time he took her that way.

  “Yes, yes. Please, Holdin,” Jill moaned softly. “I need more.”

  “I know. I’m looking at you, Jilly-girl,” he stated in a deep growl. He never used crude words when making love to her, but had found telling her how much he enjoyed her submission heightened the intimacy for both of them. It was part of the amazing relationship he’d been carefully introducing her too. Showing her that this was what he needed with her. She needed the safety of surrender in the same way he lived for the sweet pleasure of seeing her fly to a new height.

  It wasn’t new for Holdin, it’d just never been perfect like this. His other experiences had been a game to his partners and that was all right with him. He’d not intended to keep any of them. Jill was completely different. There was no game in it for either of them and he intended to keep her forever.

  Loving Jill made Holdin a complete person. He knew it. Her submission in response to his dominance stretched his limits every time. He knew she wasn’t aware of how she taught him. Actually drove him to learn more about himself as well as her spirit. Guiding her, protecting her, teaching her…these were his pleasures, his obsessions and his greatest fears. Doing anything that might damage the growth of her beautiful submissive was the fear part.

  His constant concern had hammered home control and patience. Learning the concept was one thing, being aware he had the power to hurt her made those principles an imperative. Those were his responsibilities and he’d learned them well now.

  “I’m looking at those gorgeous breasts bounce with each thrust into your body. Do you see how they dance for me?” He straightened a bit to capture a nipple in his teeth, passing his tongue back and forth over the tip as his fingers jammed into her ass with more force, making her body bounce and her breast strain on the nipple he held.

  Fire exploded in her breast as the captured nipple felt the bite of teeth coupled with a tongue-lashing. Pain and pleasure. He mixed them so skillfully that one was not as intense without the other.

  “Please, they’re yours,” Jill gasped as he captured the other nipple for the same torment.

  His fingers fucked her ass in a steady rhythm as he let the other breast go. “Yes. Mine. All of you, Jilly-girl.” He sank back to his heels and smiled at the view. “So pretty, baby. Straining open for me.” He leaned forward and flicked his tongue over her clit in light licks.

  “Holdin!” Jill gasped. “Please.”

  “Now!” he commanded, and opened his mouth over her clit, clamping down on it with firm lips and tugging gently.

  Jill screamed as her body clenched in release. Her feet came off the ground to pull knees up in an effort to get more of him in her. And then she was flying. Jerking through shattering contractions as popping explosions raced up from pussy and ass, her feet landed lightly on the ground as he continued to pump into her. His mouth worked her hard and Jill suspected she might pass out soon.

  Then she was sagging by her shoulders, gasping for air. Holdin pulled out of her, stripped the condom off, turning it inside out as he did. He leapt up and grabbed her, supporting her body so she wouldn’t strain her shoulders. He picked her up and carried her to the blanket, laying them both down as he held her shuddering body.

  Tears were streaming down her face as she clutched him. “Shhhhh, baby. Shhhhh. Did I hurt you?” he asked softly, his lips moving over her face, kissing away all evidence of her tears.

  “No. It was just…more.” Jill’s voice was small and shaky.

  “You are so beautiful. Every damn thing about you is amazing. You know I love you. Right? I’d never hurt you, baby, never. At least not so you didn’t love it.”

  He smiled into her eyes as she bit her lip. There was something so naughty about him knowing that the mix of a tiny bit of pain with her pleasure was the thing that sent her off. “You know, don’t you?” Jill asked shyly.

  “What do I know?” Holdin purred as his hands smoothed down her back.

  “That I need both sometimes.”

  “If you’re talkin’ about a little rough lovin’, yeah, I know. You drive me nuts with that. It’s the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.”

  Jill was staring into his collarbone, unable to meet his eyes. “Do you think it’s bad of me?”

  “I think,” Holdin put a knuckle under her chin and raised her face to his, “you are the most amazing woman I’ve ever known. I love you, Jill. I love everything about you. But the part that turns me inside out is how you respond to me. Get it?”

  Jill searched his eyes. “I make you crazy? You never lose control or, I don’t know, act nuts. You’ve never even asked me to make love properly. Don’t you want to?”

  Holdin frowned darkly. “How can you doubt that?” He abruptly rolled over on his back and unzipped his jeans. Out sprang his cock. It stood up from his body—long, thick and hard. The shaft was thick all the way to the tip where it narrowed a tiny bit just below the flared head. The ridge on its underside was thicker than her index finger and stood out firmly. “Wrap your hand around the base of it, Jill,” he directed in a very firm voice.

  Jill half sat up on her hip, one hand supporting her and reached for him. She grasped him and his hand covered hers from the other side, she couldn’t close her fist around him.

  “What do you think that would feel like in your little pussy? You can’t even close your fist around it,” he demanded harshly. “I can prepare your ass, make sure you feel nothing but pleasure there. I can’t do that with your cunt.” Holdin sucked in a ripping gasp as her hand on him and the subject he was arguing almost became too much. “Your body was made to take a man there, but the first time will not be easy, baby.”

  His hand tightened on hers, stroking up and down lightly. It wasn’t the first time she’d seen him or even touched him.

  “That’s what I want to know,” Jill responded softly as she watched both of them caress him. “I want to feel you in me, Holdin.” Before he could answer, she leaned down and took him in her mouth. He stretched her jaw and she couldn’t even fit half his length in her before he hit the back of her throat.

  Holdin barked out a startled groan as her head sank down over him. “Damn!”

  Jill closed her lips and began sucking, letting her head bob on him as she pumped the base. He was so hot. The velvet flesh was pulled tight over pulsing steel as his hips jerked for her. Oh yes, he felt her. He couldn’t quite control his reactions.

  “Jill!” Both his hands fisted in her hair to pull her off him and turn her face up to his. Her lips were swollen and her nose was a little red. She l
ooked as if she’d just been sucking on a cock and he had to pause. She was so damn sexy. “Jill. I will be your first lover and I will be your last lover. I just don’t want to hurt you. Don’t you get it? Guys sometimes lose control. It feels so good they just… I might lose control. I might hurt you real bad. What if I can’t stop and you want me to? Damn it, Jill. I want you too much to risk it. I’m twice as big as you and I could hold you down with one hand and take what you’re not willing to give.”

  “But you wouldn’t.” Her eyes were steady as she stared into his.

  “You’re so sure?” he questioned softly.

  “Yes.”

  Holdin groaned and pulled her into his chest, wrapping his arms around her in a fierce hug. “Don’t ask this of me. Not now.”

  “If you plan to be my lover at some point, how were you thinking to get there?” Jill wanted to know as he held her.

  “I thought I’d wait ‘til you were a little drunk some time. Alcohol deadens nerves,” he confessed in a low, fierce tone. “I couldn’t think of another way without hurting you the first time.”

  Jill lifted her head off his chest to look into his beautiful, stressed-out face. “I don’t want to be drunk and I don’t want to wait. Make love to me, Holdin. Make love to me now.”

  Holdin framed her face with his hands. “I did, I have and I do, damn it. Don’t, Jill. Please.”

  She looked at him a long moment. “Love me enough to let me feel the pain of loving you.”

  “Baby, have mercy,” he breathed softly.

  “Mercy refused,” she whispered back.

  Holdin’s eyes closed as he sucked in a deep breath. She was demanding the one thing he wanted. He wanted her spread under him so badly it scared him. There was nothing but ferocious need when he indulged in that fantasy.

  With other girls, the desire had been strong but nothing like he experienced over Jill. His needs with Jill were animalistic and base. He knew it. Entering her body in that most intimate way would be releasing an unknown element within himself. Taking her virginity might be more than either of them was ready for. How could he protect her from himself when he didn’t know what the threat would be? If there even was one?

  His hands tightened around her face for an instant. When he opened his eyes, his face was set in a fierce mask. “You will do exactly what I tell you too. If we’re going to do this, I will be in control. Do you understand? You can’t fight me, baby. I don’t know if I could stop.”

  Chapter Eight

  Jill nodded in agreement.

  “No. Say it, Jill. I want you to say the words so I know you get it. This isn’t something we can undo. You will give yourself to me in every way if we do this, baby.” He lay there waiting for her response as her big eyes blinked a moment.

  Jill’s already tingling body heated at his demand. The firm, decisive tone he took was such a turn-on. “I’m yours, Holdin. I’ll do exactly what you tell me too,” she stated as firmly as she could manage.

  Holdin suddenly rolled them over and loomed above her. Jill gasped as he roughly shoved her knees apart with powerful legs. His huge body covered her as his hands jerked her arms over her head and grasped her wrists in one of his. He was big and heavy. He smothered her with no effort and she couldn’t move. Jill’s eyes were huge as she looked up at his face above her. She was breathing roughly in reaction to the sudden shift. His cock felt as if it burned as is now rubbed up her mound and belly.

  Holdin was breathing hard through flared nostrils, a tight grimace almost clenched his teeth together as he asked her, “How does that feel, Jill? You’re completely helpless beneath a guy who can take what he wants. Is it too scary? Tell me now, because I’m not going to hear you later.”

  Jill’s eyes softened as her lids lowered. Her lips parted in short pants as she gazed up at him. “Don’t you feel how you turn me on when you do this?”

  Holdin’s forehead dropped to hers and his eyes closed for a long moment as he sucked in a several deep breaths. Then his hand released her wrists and he peeled himself off her. Briefly sitting beside her, he pulled his boots and socks off then stood looking down at her steadily as he shoved his jeans down and off. Straightening, his fisted hands rested on his hips while jutting between his legs his cock appeared huge.

  “On your knees, Jill. Give me your mouth and we’ll see if you can take it.” His command was hard, as were the male eyes that stared down at her.

  Jill came to her knees. Her eyes were on his cock as her hands rested on his thighs and she leaned into him, opening her mouth.

  “Hands behind your back. Spread your knees and get your eyes up here. I’ll tell you when you’re allowed to suck that,” Holdin snapped harshly.

  A powerful shudder of excitement rushed through Jill as she looked up into his intense face. He’d never been so demanding and she’d never wanted to taste him so badly. She quickly placed her hands behind her and shifted her knees apart as he looked down at her.

  His foot tapped a knee. “More, woman. I said spread. Rest ass on heels and straighten your back.”

  Jill swallowed as saliva flooded her mouth and creamy excitement gushed in her contracting pussy. She spread her knees as far apart as possible, straightening her back so her breasts thrust forward as her shoulders were pulled back. Her hands clasped behind her in clammy anticipation. With her face turned up, she was shockingly exposed to him. The feelings rushing through her were almost too many to distinguish but what burned brightest was a dark pleasure as his eyes moved over her.

  She’d had a taste of this kind of domination several times before, but never like this. Kneeling before him as he examined her exposed body was something new. Embarrassment that was not shame shot through her and heated her breasts. The tips actually ached as they swelled under his gaze. Deep in her belly it felt as if her soul trembled as she waited for him to speak, and she realized the thing she wanted more than anything was permission to put her lips to his cock.

  Her reaction to his orders had been to make her hungrier for him. Did he know he did that to her? He must, she concluded as she felt her womb contract in empty protest as he looked down at her and didn’t give her permission to take his taste into her mouth.

  “Do not move unless you’re told to, Jill,” Holdin growled as he watched her closely. At his words, she trembled again and he saw her body flush in a rush of excitement. Her reaction was further confirmed as he stepped back to get a better look. Her belly shook in uncontrollable shudders and as he inspected her, the folds of her pussy flowered in excitement. Swelling lips were pulled apart by her stretched stance. As he watched, fluid dripped to the blanket below her.

  Holdin gritted his teeth. He’d meant to scare her. Give her another chance to change her mind. The flushed, trembling Jill kneeling before him was so excited she was making a puddle. He’d never seen anything as sexy as the vision she made right then.

  His eyes shot up to her face again and he watched her swallow. Amazement washed through him. He grabbed her chin. “Open. Do not swallow without permission.”

  Her breathing increased as she opened her mouth for him. He was watching her with a very stern look on his face as he held her jaw open. Suddenly Jill realized she couldn’t control the flow of saliva. He would see how badly she wanted his taste. The command not to swallow meant she couldn’t hide it. Saliva quickly pooled in her mouth and spilled down her chin. Holdin’s thumb moved slowly back and forth through it as it dripped onto her shuddering breasts.

  “Look at you,” he breathed. “My girl is dripping for it. All over. Do you see how that needy pussy is wetting the blanket, baby? And look at your mouth. You can’t help it, can you?”

  Jill moaned in a strangled admission. Embarrassment swamped her. He gazed down at her drooling face and saw her needs. It was almost too much as he smiled tightly and released her chin.

  “Swallow,” he commanded softly. “So perfect, my sweet baby. Do you know how beautiful you are to me?” Even though he’d meant to be harsh,
encouraging her with his approval was an imperative. She’d shocked him again. Teaching him with her response in ways words could not.

  His damp fingers went to his cock and he stroked it slowly in front of her face, coating it with her saliva. “Is this what you want, Jilly-girl?” he asked.

  “Yes,” Jill admitted softly.

  “Yes, what?” Holdin pressed her just as quietly but there was steel in the low tones. “Ask for what you want, baby. Say the words. This is not wrong or dirty. This is what we both need from each other. Now be who you are, Jill. Be needy. Don’t try to hide it from me.”